why?

as i was running tonight, with my bffs mr. hudson and jay-z, natch, i began writing in my head.  this is definitely not uncommon.  however what followed can best be described as just that.  this is because i began to cry.  i'm not often a crier.  of course, i actually cried twice today, but once was because of a story that my friend amy told me that is a totally different blog altogether...but cry i did. 


people have been asking me why i am running the susan g komen this september.  a lot.  and to be honest, i never really have an answer.  "why not" is actually a common response...but tonight as i was running i began thinking about why i'm doing this.  why ask people for money when times are tough and people are struggling.  why ask people to pray for me when there are many more pressing issues in this world far more in need or worthy of prayer than me running 3 miles.  why ask people to come out and support me when there are a million better things to do on a saturday morning.  and then i realized.  one month from tomorrow i will be waking up and going downtown to run 3.1 miles.  and i know the thoughts that will be going through my head.  i know why i am doing this.

I'm doing it for this little girl.  This sassy, darling, dancing little girl.

I'm doing it for this little girl. This hilarious, sweet, loves to share little girl.

And I'm doing it for this little girl. This smart, creative, loving little girl.

and so that is why i have the courage to ask for donations.  that is why i have the humility to ask for prayers.  and that is why i have the strength to ask for support.  because of these three little girls.  they made me realize how capable i am of loving someone.  how it is possible to care about someone so much more than yourself.  and that it is important to leave the world better than you found it, because someone far more worthy than yourself is going to inherit that world from you some day.  i want these girls to grow up in a world that is safe and filled with the promise of a long, healthy life.  i want cancer to be in the archaic word box with typewriter, the pet rock, and beta.  breast cancer is for the history books, not for these little girls.  and that is why i'm doing what i'm doing.

fear not when, fear not why,

fear not much while we're alive,

life is for living not living up tight,

see ya somewhere up in the sky,

fear not die, i'll be alive for a million years, bye bye,

so not for legends, i'm forever young

my name shall survive

~jay-z, young forever

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